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Camilla Palmer's avatar

Thank you for writing this. It was so well written and drawn. I'm sorry you lost your chonky one. You are so good at expressing the complicated and difficult. My heart is with you as you mourn

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Ghostie's avatar

I'm so sorry! Twyla was just a young one and such a sweet one and a fierce one and a chonky one. Thank you for helping to share the layers upon layers of grief. Dogs are the best best best and it's amazing that we get to learn from their love.

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Jocelyn McAuley (she/her)'s avatar

Oh your sweet potato! I love how you shared your adventures getting to know her and how she came to fit in your lives. You have expressed the unexpressible nature of this so so well. Just, please, keep feeling and talking and drawing and sharing. There is no "it was only my pet" ...she was woven in your life in a quirky wonderful way.

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Jenny's avatar

Oh Shay, I'm so very sorry for your loss. What a loving home you made for Twyla and her adorable snout. Someone told me once that grief is an expression of our love for the one lost, and that has helped me be kind to myself about the strong feelings involved. Sending every good wish.

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Lucky Bum's avatar

Poop!

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Kate Bingaman-Burt's avatar

So so sorry ❤️❤️❤️

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Mari Amend's avatar

😭😭😭 this is so relatable and sad and beautiful. Thanks for making meaning out of the messy pain of life. Sending to my friend who just suddenly lost her 3 yo cat 💔💔💔

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Kat's avatar

Ah man, this one hurt, but in the good way that can only happen for those of us who also have loved a dufus of a dog that was a best friend. I'm so sorry for your loss. It wasn't your fault.

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Vivian's avatar

💜

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CJ's avatar

<3

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hippo fait des trucs's avatar

❤️‍🩹

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Molly Templeton's avatar

I'm so sorry. This was incredible to read; I recognize so many of these feelings, so strongly, from when my beloved cat died in 2017. The guilt! The humor! The other kinds of guilt! It's so hard. Sending much love.

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LL's avatar

💔 heartbroken for you. Losing a beloved pet is such a uniquely tender grief - so many of us relate to what you captured perfectly here. Sending hugs your way

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Jenny's avatar

So, so sorry. Pets dying suddenly is so awful. I judged myself so harshly when I had to put my cat down. Non-stop "Did I do the right thing?" loop in my head. I appreciate your words and can completely relate. I've also heard laughing is related to crying so sometimes we will laugh when it seems inappropriate but it is a natural response like two sides of the same coin. Glad laughing also gave you some relief from discomfort.

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Alix's avatar

Oh I am so, so sorry! What an amazing tribute, she was so lucky to be loved by you.

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Margreet de Heer's avatar

So sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing all your feelings. All too familiar...

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